"Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Everlasting God, the Lord, the Creator of the ends of the earth Does not become weary or tired. His understanding is inscrutable. He gives strength to the weary, And to him who lacks might He increases power.
Though youths grow weary and tired, And vigourous young men stumble badly, Yet those who wait on theLord Will gain new strength; They will mount up with wings like eagles. They will run and not get tired. They will walk and not become weary."
Isaiah 40:28-31 NASB
Some of you may know, others don't know, but I have Chron's disease. It has moved into my urinary tract. I am likely to pass away pretty soon if nothing can be done surgically. Yes, it hurts more than you can imagine.
I never imagined I would go through a greiving process of lossing this life on earth, but I am. It hurts to know how I'm hurting those who love me. I wish I could take their pain away. But as I grow weaker, physically and mentally I find myself crying with them.
Selfishly, I long to be absent from this body and present with my Lord in a new body, especially when it hurts so bad, and I can't do much. Then I look at my family and feel and hear their tears. I truely am caught longing to be in both worlds. Please pray that God's Will will be done.
My heavenly Father really does know what's best. I am willing to endure whatever God wants me to do. Please pray for the grace I'm gonna need to live through another surgery, or go Home, which ever He wills is best.
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